Small talk with an old lady

Today an old lady start talking to Ryan and about our kids. She asked how far apart Kamyrn and Kade were and I told her 4 years. She replied with, "That's quite a big gap!" and then I threw back at her, "I did have another boy in between them but he died." not rudely but enough for her to possibly shut her mouth. Then she through back at me, "At least you have kids. I always wanted them but never had any." I felt bad for a minute. But thought who was she to judge how far apart my kids should be? Oh well we continued on with the conversation (we were waiting for Ryan's turn to get his haircut). She was nice and just asked questions about the kids. I hope I didn't offend her.I am pretty sure I didn't, because Ryan would have let me know. I was just bothered about her comment and wanted to stand up for myself. I wish Kade did have a closer sibling to him. But God had other plans. Now that I am having two so close together I am sure I will have similar reactions but just the opposite!

I already get that surprised look out of people when they ask me how far apart Kamryn and Keegan will be. I tell them almost almost a year exactly they always tell me how hard that it's going to be. But honestly how many of them have kids a year apart? How do they REALLY know? Yeah maybe they babysit kids that are a year apart, but are those kids siblings and are those kids theirs? I think that makes a big difference, could be worse could be better, but I think they will get used to the fact that they are both around all the time and I will get used to them and I will know them inside and out, better than a babysitter. Before I had Kamryn I thought, wow this would be hard if Kooper were here. Now I am getting ready for that situation with a 1 year old and a newborn and honestly I am not really worried about it(yet). I know there may be challenges, but for some reason I am not nervous or scared or even thinking about how hard it is going to be. I know it will take adjusting,I am mostly worried about leaving the house alone with them. Maybe I am thinking more about as they get older how much easier it will be and that idea or thought is drowning out the thought of when they are so little still. Guess I can only wait and see.

I wish I would have taken before and after pictures of Ryan. He decided to let his hair grow a little (maybe I will get some pics tonight). It has been shaved weekly for the past 5 years....it was getting long and needed trimmed. It's not long enough yet to really style it, but in about a week it should be. It is weird seeing my man with hair again! But he's looking hot! I haven't actually told him this, but I encouraged it because I am sure that he won't have hair for too long.... all males in his family are bald on top or it's pretty thin (hope I don't offend any family members reading this)! He might as well have some hair while he can!