Just wanted to share...

I just wanted to share this blog post by a women I don't really know, I have just been stalking her blog since I found it. Her words have many times given me strength and remind me of who's in charge and thinking of the Eternal perspective, not the worldly perspective. But I understand. I feel the way she feels sometimes. She too lost her baby and knows how I feel. It is a really good post and if you have a minute, read it, it may make you want to start from the begining of her story. She has such a great strength.

http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/2008/11/redeemed.html

So I haven't looked at my profile on Myspace in quite a while. I forgot what it even looked like, so today I went there and found a very true saying that I put up shortly after my older sister Bree was in a bad car accident almost 2 years ago. At the time we didn't really know what to expect out of it, as she was heavily sedated due to the swelling in her brain. Thankfully she is doing great and we are so glad she is still here and part of our lives!!

Anyhow this saying fits a lot of life's good and bad times. When I read it I think of Kooper and how much he has changed my life and those around me. I think of how it has made me the person I am today. Hopefully a better person.

There are moments in your life
that make you and set the course
of who you're going to be.
Sometimes they are little, subtle
moments. Sometimes they're big
moments you never saw coming.
No one asks for their life to
change, but it does. It's what
you do afterwards that counts.
That's when you find out who you are.

4 months ago...

I wish I could have posted this yesterday. But hey, better late than never.

My little monkey would have been 4 months old yesterday. I think about him and miss him every day. Last Saturday while my parents were visiting I took them to see Kooper's headstone in person. I thought I would post some pictures, since it shows his little pumpkin Kade picked out for him!

Yesterday before my parents went back to Utah, we went to Red Robin for lunch. Of course Kade had to have a balloon. I don't remember if he picked it or whoever grabbed it for him randomly grabbed a white balloon. As soon as we reached the doors he said, "I wanna let it go!" as soon as he took one step ousite the ribbon slid ride out of his hands and flew up to the sky. I asked him where his balloon was going. He said to Koopert (he alwasy adds a T to the end of his name, I don't know why). Kade loves his little brother so much. It is so strange how no matter how well or how much you know someone that such a bond can form between two brothers. He brings up his little brother often and I am so grateful for that. I want him to know and love his little brother and to remember him always. He loves to show new people that come to our home pictures of his little brother. He is so proud. Kade is such an example to us and we love him very much!

I know I have posted this picture before, but I don't have any other pictures of Kade and Kooper together. I love this picture!




Happy 4 month Birthday Kooper! We love and miss you so much!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Kade had a blast last night! He didn't do too much trick-or-treating, but enough to get way too much candy! He loved helping us pass out candy. We sat out in front of the garage and Kade got to see all the fun costumes. As each trick-or-treater thanked him, he always said, "You're welcome." He was so cute, acting all grown up.

He loved being Batman! Right before we went outsite he looked up at me, and said, "Mommy, Batman has to go potty!"