Lacking Motivation

*POST FROM EARLIER TODAY*

My struggle for today....

I am still in my comfy clothes....I have LOTS of errands to run and no motivation to get ready. Since I woke up at 7am on Sunday morning I have had 17 hours of sleep. It is now Wednesday and I am tired. To some that may be alot of sleep for 3 nights, but for me that is definitely not enough, that is barely enough sleep for 2 nights! I am super jealous because Ryan is in Sedona right now. They are doing a "team builder" for work. It sounds like so much fun. They are taking a pink jeep tour, which I have wanted to do for years now. We will go one day! I have a long to do list and have already managed to let the kids make a disaster at what was a clean house as of yesterday thanks to Ryan.

Here's the list
Wash/dry the sheets
2 more loads of laundry
get both Kade and I ready so we can actually leave the house
Get a prescription filled at Target
Order Kade's birthday cake and get formula at Walmart
Take back movies
Go to the bank
Grocery shopping

So now I am going to get my bootie off this chair and go get ready and get some stuff done so that I can relax and clean the kids mess up before the end of the night.

*Fast forward to 10:30 PM*

Well I completed 5 and a half (half meaning I got 1 more load of laundry done instead of 2) of the things on "my list". Tomorrow I will start a new one! At least I finally got the motivation to get something done today. I think writing about it helped me want to finish it.

Random side note: I can't wait to start working out again....I keep thinking about what I am going to do and I am super motivated about it now, I will have to remember this post after I have the baby so that I can remember how motivated I was or hope that I don't have to remember that I was motivated, but still be motivated (if that makes any sense).

Visitors

Ryan and I don't get family visitors here in Arizona very often. If we do get them it is usually our parents. So it was really nice to see my uncle Mark (my Mom's brother) and aunt Irene. My grandparents were originally going to go with them down to Yuma but my grandma has been having some back problems and wasn't able to make the trip. We missed seeing them but were glad that Mark and Irene could stop by on their way back up north. They got here this afternoon and we were able to spend a little time chatting and then went to Logan's Roadhouse for lunch. It was really nice to see them. They are so nice.

Thanks for stopping by Mark and Irene we had a nice time!

This morning I had another appointment with the doctor and an ultrasound. I had to work last night so I could take Easter night off (and also the night before Kade's birthday!). So I was super tired when I went to the doctor. I got there a little early and when the U/S tech came out to call me I had just started to doze off and practically jumped out of my chair when I heard my name being called. Keegan is doing good. Here is a picture from my ultrasound this morning. It is just a 2d ultrasound picture. For those that have a hard time seeing what's in the picture it is of his head and arm with his hand doing the peace sign! haha

Poor Sunflowers

Poor Sunflowers. I have always wanted to plant my own sunflowers and then when they got big enough, cut them and take them to Kooper. Or just to put in a vase in my house. So about a month ago I planted some sunflowers and yesterday when I was writing my blog post I hear Ryan tell Kade, You are going to be in big trouble! He looked at me and told me that he would let me handle this one. Kade was playing in the backyard. I walked over to the sliding glass door to find my sunflower plants that had grown about a foot tall ripped out of the pot and thrown across the dirt yard. I was sad, not super sad, but just didn't really understand why he would do it. Actually I think he did it because I wouldn't let him turn the hose on to water all the weeds in our dirt backyard. I am sure it wouldn't take long to plant new ones. I got over it pretty fast and didn't get too upset. I probably should have punished him. Oh well, now when his kids do the same thing to him or his wife, he can tell them the story about how he ripped out his mom's flowers. Who knows maybe I did it to my mom as a kid too!

I'm trying to be like Jesus

For people who aren't familiar with the church I go to, we have a class that is for the women in the church and it's called Relief Society. It is one of my favorite parts of church on Sunday. It is just so nice to go to a class and listen to others experiences and learn of ways to improve our family and our life and to be the best women, wife, and mother to our family, friends, co-workers, neighbors and all those around us. I always feel so uplifted and I always get so much out of the lessons. That was one of the biggest things that I missed when I had a calling where I served the young women in the ward. I loved being with them and teaching lessons, but there is just something so nice and uplifting about Relief Society.

The lesson today especially touched my heart. One thing stuck out to me. It talked about having wayward children that fall away from the church or are rebellious and possibly get themselves into bad things. The one thing we can do is pray for them and not give up on them or disown them. I worry sometimes about what my kids choices will be. They have free agency and will one day be the ones making the choice whether or not to go to church or go on a mission, or do drugs, or participate in things that are not good. I hope I don't end up in that position but the one thing I will do if I do have a wayward child is to pray for them and not to give up on them or disown them. If we did give up on them then we wouldn't be doing what Jesus would do. Would he turn his back or give up on us after a mistake? The teacher also talked about a story and I can't remember who it was by but that person had been walking by the primary room (where the kids go for class) and heard the children singing the song, I'm trying to be like Jesus. Kids are so innocent and to hear them sing those words and with such courage and enthusiasm always brings a smile to my face. As she read the words tears came to my eyes as I thought about how I can try to be like Jesus and I pictured Kade singing it and I decided that this year in our house I am going to try and focus with Kade on that topic and teach him that song. Because that is why we are here to be tested. Our goal is to be like Jesus.

I found a youtube video with the song sung by children with pictures of Christ so you can hear the words too.


I’m trying to be like Jesus;
I’m following in his ways.
I’m trying to love as he did, in all that I do and say.
At times I am tempted to make a wrong choice,
But I try to listen as the still small voice whispers,

Love one another as Jesus loves you.
Try to show kindness in all that you do.
Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,
For these are the things Jesus taught.

I’m trying to love my neighbor;
I’m learning to serve my friends.
I watch for the day of gladness when Jesus will come again.
I try to remember the lessons he taught.
Then the Holy Spirit enters into my thoughts, saying:

Love one another as Jesus loves you.
Try to show kindness in all that you do.
Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,
For these are the things Jesus taught.

I love getting my hair done!

I love to get a haircut, even if it's only a trim and the style didn't change. It just makes me feel so much better. Plus someone else drys/styles your hair for you and it always looks way better than when you do it. This is what I did today. I got a haircut and color. I went dark...not as dark as Ryan would have liked, but it's dark. Next time I will go darker! I really like it! I have had a hard time finding someone affordable and good at cutting/dying hair. It's crazy how much it costs at salons especially here in AZ. Plus about a week or two before I had Kooper I went to a local salon here and got a hack job done on my hair. It was totally uneven in the back and just HORRIBLE! I had to go to another salon that was EXPENSIVE and have it fixed.

My friend Jenna has a friend that does her hair and I asked her if she could do my hair sometime. So I took the kids out to Mesa today to hang out with Jenna and her kids before I got my haircut. She was also watching a little 3 month old girl who happens to be the daughter of her friend cutting my hair. It was a little crazy we have 5 kids under 5! Three of them were 1 and under! It was crazy (did I already say that?), we even ventured out to an outdoor mall to let Kade and Jenna's son Sumner play in the water/splash pad area and maybe do a little shopping. It was interesting to say the least.

Kade loved the baby. He held her and talked to her, he has such a love for babies. He will make a good dad some day. He got her to smile and stop crying. Kamryn wasn't really jealous at all when I was holding her (hopefully it stays somewhat that way). She got worried when the baby would cry but for the most part she was interested in everything else. They would stare at each other and exchange smiles. It was cute!

It was a fun day!

Small talk with an old lady

Today an old lady start talking to Ryan and about our kids. She asked how far apart Kamyrn and Kade were and I told her 4 years. She replied with, "That's quite a big gap!" and then I threw back at her, "I did have another boy in between them but he died." not rudely but enough for her to possibly shut her mouth. Then she through back at me, "At least you have kids. I always wanted them but never had any." I felt bad for a minute. But thought who was she to judge how far apart my kids should be? Oh well we continued on with the conversation (we were waiting for Ryan's turn to get his haircut). She was nice and just asked questions about the kids. I hope I didn't offend her.I am pretty sure I didn't, because Ryan would have let me know. I was just bothered about her comment and wanted to stand up for myself. I wish Kade did have a closer sibling to him. But God had other plans. Now that I am having two so close together I am sure I will have similar reactions but just the opposite!

I already get that surprised look out of people when they ask me how far apart Kamryn and Keegan will be. I tell them almost almost a year exactly they always tell me how hard that it's going to be. But honestly how many of them have kids a year apart? How do they REALLY know? Yeah maybe they babysit kids that are a year apart, but are those kids siblings and are those kids theirs? I think that makes a big difference, could be worse could be better, but I think they will get used to the fact that they are both around all the time and I will get used to them and I will know them inside and out, better than a babysitter. Before I had Kamryn I thought, wow this would be hard if Kooper were here. Now I am getting ready for that situation with a 1 year old and a newborn and honestly I am not really worried about it(yet). I know there may be challenges, but for some reason I am not nervous or scared or even thinking about how hard it is going to be. I know it will take adjusting,I am mostly worried about leaving the house alone with them. Maybe I am thinking more about as they get older how much easier it will be and that idea or thought is drowning out the thought of when they are so little still. Guess I can only wait and see.

I wish I would have taken before and after pictures of Ryan. He decided to let his hair grow a little (maybe I will get some pics tonight). It has been shaved weekly for the past 5 years....it was getting long and needed trimmed. It's not long enough yet to really style it, but in about a week it should be. It is weird seeing my man with hair again! But he's looking hot! I haven't actually told him this, but I encouraged it because I am sure that he won't have hair for too long.... all males in his family are bald on top or it's pretty thin (hope I don't offend any family members reading this)! He might as well have some hair while he can!

Big Boy!

I woke up nice and early this morning to go to the doctors. I had a BPP(bio physical profile) ultrasound and got to see little Keegan! It seems like it's been so long because at my last few appointments the doctor hasn't used the machines that are just in his office for fun. It was good to see the little guy. Although sometimes it is scary, sometimes I am afraid that if he hasn't been super active that they will pull up the screen and I will see the horrible nightmare I have seen before. The cord is by his neck, which wasn't what caused Kooper's death but it's still scary! I am sure he will move around and next week it won't be there! You heard that right, next week. Now that I will be 28 weeks in a few days I will be having weekly ultrasounds and visits with the doctor.

Anyhow Keegan is looking good. When Kade saw the ultrasounds he shouted, "I can't wait to see my brother!" He is measuring 2 pounds 14 ounces (that would be the 90th percentile and 2 weeks ahead.) According to the doctors measurements I am 1 week ahead. When they were doing the ultrasound calculations just based on his femur measurement alone the EDD (expected due date) was June 1st! So looks like we got a big boy coming! The doctor recommended that I cut back on the carbs (pouty look) if I don't want him to be HUGE! I am just sad because most of my favorite foods are carbs! It's a good thing watermelon and strawberry season are coming. Fruits, cheese, meats and last of all veggies(yuck) will be my food! . My placenta was in the way as usual so the tech didn't get the best shots...but there will be many more to come :)

A visit to the cemetery

I knew Easter was coming up fast on me. I wanted to be better and get something out to the cemetery for Kooper before it was actually Easter! For Valentines day I waited until a few days before to get my little decorations and then there wasn't much left at Hobby Lobby, so for Easter I bought some stuff about a month ago. I decided that this morning would be a good day to go.

It is such a nice day outside. Ryan brought some water and wax to wash and shine his headstone. While Kade and I put up the little decorations Kamryn sat on the grass and before we know it we look over and she is laying down enjoying the sun! I had to snap a picture.

There aren't alot of fresh sites in the babyland which is always a good site to see. The last few times we have been it seems like there have been at least a few fresh burial sites which breaks my heart.

I think this picture looks funny. Kamryn doesn't want to look up because of the sun and then I also got a picture of everybody else's foot!

We put a little solar lamp up and a green windmill and some blue Easter eggs.

Kade enjoyed running around with the squirt bottle!

Kade

I finally got Kade to eat Macaroni and Cheese. What kid doesn't like mac n cheese? Tonight I convinced him to try it again. A few nights ago we had fettuccine alfredo and he loved it, so I figured I would give the mac n cheese another try. He didn't eat alot, but he did eat it!

Kade also has been informing me lately that his name isn't Kade, it's Kaden. He has a friend at Preschool named Caden and he likes it better than his name. He doesn't always correct me. but every once in a while he says, my name is Kaden! It actually would go well with our other kids names, except Koopers. All ending with n and all.

He is a such a funny boy and such a big helper. Today he asked if he could hold Keegan. I said, when he gets bigger and comes out. In the back of my head I thought hopefully. He kind of sat there for a minute and I wondered if he was thinking the same thing I was. I wondered if he thought will this baby get to come home with us? I have faith that he will. I have to, there is nothing else I can do. Even though I have had a normal healthy pregnancy since Kooper, although Kooper's was normal and healthy there was just an "accident" at the end. I still have the same fears and anxieties that I did with Kamryn. Sometimes I think it's worse this time around.

So after the silence he looked at me and described how Keegan will come out, "You will go to the hospital, and the doctor will pick him out...but not with scissors." and that was that.

He is such a sweet boy!

The kids

Today I had to take Kamryn to get her blood drawn to test for anemia and lead. I never had to do this with Kade. Before I took her I looked at her arms and wondered where they heck they were going to get this blood from because you couldn't see any veins, and when nurse went to draw the blood and put the turnaket ( i am not sure how to spell that one!) on you couldn't see a vein, and she could barely feel one, so she basically went in blind and luckily got it after just moving around a little. Poor baby!

Kade is a growing boy. I haven't measured or weighed him since his last doctors appointment but that boy has had a big appetite lately and he looks bigger to me. I think he is going through a growth spurt.

Here is a little story about Kade

When we went to visit my parents during Christmas I brought home a little cradle that I got for Christmas when I was 2. I brought it for Kamryn to play with eventually. I also brought home one of the last dolls I ever got, which was an American Girl Bitty Baby doll. Packed up with her was a white crocheted blanket that I got for Christmas along with the doll. Well I brought these things home and I put them in Kamryn's room. In the past week I have come in and Kade has put the doll in the cradle and placed the white crocheted blanket on top of the doll sometimes completely covering the whole cradle. I asked him what he was doing and he told me he was hiding his brother Kooper. I am glad that he remembers the white blanket that Kooper was buried with. It was my blessing blanket. And I am glad that he remembers his brother. It reminds me without him telling me that he misses him. He tells me at least once a week that he wishes Kooper was here.

It makes me happy that Kade remembers Kooper and talks about him, but sometimes it breaks my heart that he doesn't understand why his little brother was taken away from him. I know that one day he will understand that is happened for a reason. Sometimes I still wonder. One day we will know.

Nap hair

Yesterday when Kamryn woke up from her nap this is what her hair looked like.

Because she just woke up everytime the red light went off before it snapped the picture she looked down. She must have had some good sleep to get hair like that and a big red mark on the right side of her face!

Indecisive

So for the longest time, every holiday Ryan asks me what I want...I always tell him a hand stamped custom necklace, he never ends up getting me one and the reason is, he doesn't know what I would like. Now my birthday is coming up. The problem with him getting me a necklace is that I don't know what I like. It's hard for me to choose without seeing the names on them myself. Plus, nothing is personalized to your specific family situation. I go on Etsy ALL the time and look and look and look until I am more and more confused. To make matters worse I am a VERY INDECISIVE person... I don't do it very much anymore, because I mostly have this problem with clothes. But I buy and return things alot! Since I haven't been buying clothes, I haven't had the problem. But that tells you right there how indecisive I am. If you ask any of my family or friends they will tell you. Also I have been this way for quite a while. It was always a joke especially when I would go shopping at store that wasn't near home, my dad would say, " I am sure we will be back in a week or 2 to return what you just bought!" Or Ryan teases me all the time....and actually I do have some shoes I bought on sale...waiting to be returned! Also I have a hard time picking where to eat or what to do. I am just an indecisive person which makes this process even harder!

So here are some things I find myself drawn too, but I am not sure and I can't decide...I like to ask people's opinions. I wonder if that is why I return things all the time. I choose what someone else would choose and then end up returning or exchanging for what I really wanted. But if you want to leave your opinion that would be greatly appreciated...haha

I always find myself looking at this one.
or this one ...but then I think will all the names fit?

Although I really like the individual tag type like this one. But a different font...

I really like this symbol for Kooper


I also like this ring....with Kooper's name on it. I am just worried since it's silver that it will get tarnished...


But then I saw this one...it's different. I could put all 4 kids names on the rectangular block and then on the square put R & K or something like that...


The funny thing is, if I just got one, even if I didn't pick it out. I would probably love it as long as it had all my kids names on it! And your probably wondering how I am going to do that when I am still undecided on the name. But I think I have to go with Keegan now....because every night when Kade says his prayers, he says, "I'm thankful for baby Keegan" and he tells me all the time that Keegan is going to be his name...I can't change it now!

Decisions, Decisions...will I ever be able to make a decision?

Surprise!

I woke up this morning and thought, I wonder why Kamryn hasn't yelled or cried to let me know she is awake. Kade was the one who came in to wake me up, usually if Kamryn is awake he tells me or he goes in and talks or plays with her. I walk over by her room and hear her babbling and making sounds. I walk in and this is what I find.

This is the first time she has stood up in her crib. I knew she could do it if she tried, but she never did, until today.

She burst out into laughter as soon as I saw her. Of course by the time I got the camera, it was no longer funny.

Kade insisted that he needed to be in the picture in his PJ's that are TOO small!

On a side note, I love it when Kade wants to help me clean, but only certain things. But they always want to do what you won't let them do, for example Mop, sweep, clean off the glass tables and things like that. It drove me nuts today. I just wanted to clean and I had a 4 year old trying to clean up after me making things look like they were never done in the first place! Oh well at least he wants to clean!

Kamryn's 9 months old (yesterday)!

She looks so surprised. She just wants to get the camera from me!

Kamryn is 9 months old...yesterday. I was being not the best Mom and didn't do my normal pictures, but part of my excuse was that we weren't going to the doctor until today, so I wouldn't have any of her "stats". She is growing so fast. I wish I would have documented more milestones with Kade. I am sure I could go back to pictures of things and look at the date to be able to tell what age he started doing something, but that's a lot of work.

Just in the past couple days Kamryn has started to pull herself up to anything. Before it just needed to be low enough, but now she is able to pull herself to standing up to the couch, the coffee table, her leapfrog table, just about anything. She also has a little stroller/walker that she can walk with. She has learned when she is falling to put her arms out to catch herself. She is stretching the limit of 9 month dresses, but fits good into 12 month. Not so much 12 month shirts though, they end up being belly shirts, so I get her 18 month shirts. She still wears 12 month bottoms though. She loves to follow her brother Kade EVERYWHERE! Kade is getting tired of it and says, "Just leave me alone!" It's kind of cute! I have to remind Kade that if he doesn't want her to play with him then he needs to take his toys in his room or up to the table. He thinks that she shouldn't be aloud in his playroom. I then remind him that it's EVERYONE's playroom.

I took her to her doctor's appointment and she sure is growing. She weighs 22 pounds and is 29 inches tall. She is in the 90th percentile for EVERYTHING! It was a painless visit. She did have to have a TB test which she didn't even cry when they poked her. She would have gotten her blood drawn today to test for lead and anemia, but they are so smart at that doctor's office and only gave me a piece of paper that said the lab name and her info. So when I left I asked someone at the desk exactly what I was supposed to do. They told me the nearest location. I went and come to find out they told me the location of a completely different lab. So tomorrow I will find out the real location and she will have to get poked again!

She babbles a little, when I try and get her to say something she blows air through her lips and tries to make a sounds. Mostly she says bababababa. I think it's cute. She sleeps through the night...usually about 12 hours! She still has 2-3 naps a day. She loves to EAT! Hardly ever will she refuse food. She LOVES the bath. She gets so excited when you take her in the bathroom especially when the water starts going. I can't wait to see how she reacts to a swimming pool.

She always has a smile on her face, not always for strangers, but especially for Kade and her Daddy. She loves to laugh at them, especially when they are being crazy!

This picture is from about a week ago, she is wearing the same dress today though. She doesn't use her binky much anymore, pretty much only when I want her to keep from putting something in her mouth or sometimes at bedtime.

Here are a few pictures of her today. It is getting hard to take her picture because as soon as she sees the camera she comes racing to try and get it from me.

I couldn't resist a shot of her chubby legs!

Bad Mom

I am having one of those days where I feel like a bad mom. Today is supposed to be Kamryn's 9 month old post with pictures of her and a little update on her, but unfortunately laziness and forgetfulness got to me and no pictures got taken. I didn't even get dressed in normal clothes today. I have the same sweats on I had on when I got out of the shower this morning. Kade is still wearing his PJ's he wore last night. Kamryn was the only one that got dressed...in a cute little watermelon outfit. Tomorrow is her doctor's appointment. I am looking forward to seeing how much she weighs but not looking forward to the shots! I am such a great Mom that I didn't dress my kids up for St. Patrick's day or fix them any green colored foods. I let Kade spend too much time either playing Playhouse Disney on the computer and watching TV. I still have lots of housework to do. But I did accomplish getting both kids to take a 2 hour nap at the same time and instead of getting things done I managed to get in a 2 hour nap myself! Tomorrow I will do better, tomorrow I will get more laundry done, actually get dressed and maybe even leave the house. Tomorrow.....

Kids

Today as Kade and I got ready for his friends birthday party, who was turning 5 he tells me, "He can swim and ride his bike with only 2 wheels!" My response, "Oh yeah, how do you know that?" Kade's reply, "Cuz he's 5!"

Kade thinks that magically when he turns 5 he will know how to swim and be able to ride his bike without training wheels! We are working on the bike thing and I am planning on getting him in swimming lessons this spring since I failed to last year!

Also today I learned a few new things about Kamryn. She loves to drink from a straw and also blow bubbles into drinks. She entertained herself for quite sometime blowing bubbles in my strawberry lemonade! I know what your thinking, you think it's cute now but just wait, pretty soon it will drive you nuts! Oh well, I will enjoy it for now!

Fry Sauce

I got to have some of this with my french fries today.

This definitely didn't taste or look as good as Crown Burger's Fry Sauce!

Someone Ryan works with told him that the Burger King by Ryan's work has FRY SAUCE. I just had to have some! So today we went to Burger King. It doesn't taste near as yummy as Fry Sauce from Crown Burger's fry sauce (if you are ever in the Salt Lake City, Utah area you have to go to Crown Burger. I especially love their french fries and fry sauce...the best I have ever had!), but it definitely helped curb my craving for Fry Sauce!

Excuses

I have been pregnant for quite a while now. Of course there were breaks between these three pregnancies but sometimes I forget what it feels like to not be pregnant. I have realized that there are a few perks/excuses that pregnant people get like:

• I have an excuse to have a belly.
• I have an excuse to be forgetful...it's true pregnancy and kids cause memory loss!
• I have an excuse for sleeping in late or being sleepy.
• I have an excuse not to clean the shower. Too much chemicals with not enough ventilation.
• I have an excuse to get a pedicure once I get so far along in the pregnancy (I am getting to that point) It's tough to bend over when there is a hard mass in your tummy. For men out there stick a basketball in your shirt and try and touch your toes....that's how it feels!
• I have an excuse why I haven't been running (even though I want to be).
• I have an excuse to sit down in a crowded place without feeling bad for those standing waiting for a seat around me.
• I have an excuse for taking the most comfortable seat at a work meeting.
• I have an excuse not to lift the heavy things.
• I have an excuse to cry or bawl over things and not look silly. For example, we were at Culver's on Friday. For example they showed a replay a million times of a last second winning shot in a college basketball game and the shot was from almost half court...the guy made it. I cried...I told Ryan that was a miracle shot and there must be a reason why they made it. I know stupid and silly. I had chills and everything! haha
• I have an excuse to eat a little more, or often...like during church. It doesn't look as bad that I am eating Kade's Fruitloops during church when I am pregnant.

I can't think of anymore right now, but feel free to add your own in my comments. I would love to hear them.

I enjoy being pregnant. There are some things that aren't fun about being pregnant but they are definitely worth sacrificing for the end reward. I love my kids. I am thankful for a fertile body that has never had to try hard to get pregnant. My heart aches for those that have a hard time. I imagine that it is one of the most frustrating and possibly heartbreaking trials that someone can go through. I wish getting pregnant was as easy for them as it is for me. Although they probably have other things in life that are easy for them that are hard for me. I know God planned and knows are trials and they are only there to help us grow.

Kids, Target and Barbies

I love to hear Kade's take on different things. It is fun to listen to him talk. It really helps you realize how his brain works and see things from his almost 5 year old perspective. It's funny because whenever he sees something cool that he wishes Ryan or I had, he asks, "Do you want me to get you that for your birthday?"

He is becoming much more polite and is listening to me ALOT better, especially in public. He apologizes for things without me telling him to. It is getting easier to take him places.


It's funny because sometimes he will just randomly tell me something that happened at preschool. He really like to play with a girl named Carly. Whenever I asked him who he played with that day he tells me her name first. He also just says alot of funny random things.


Kamryn is getting faster and faster at crawling but I can tell that she hates it. She has rug burn on her knees and they are red, it doesn't help that much even with pants. She hates to crawl on the tile too. As soon as she reaches it she is crawling on her hands and feet and crying the whole time. I have a feeling as soon as she gets this walking thing down she will be off those knees. She loves to walk while holding your hands I have even put her up to her walker/stroller toy and she pushes that and walks with it. I have to help because she tends to lean on it and I am afraid she is going to push it right out from under her! I will have to get a picture sometime when Ryan gets home.

Today we went to my favorite store Target and walked around. My favorite spots to go when I go to Target are:

Dollar section at the front of the store.

Baby section

Office supplies

Ends of the isles where are the clearance items are

Doll/Barbie isle



Well when I was walking down the Barbie isle I found this Barbie that reminded me of my childhood. I am pretty sure it was my sisters because when it came out I wasn't even old enough to know what a Barbie was. The dress she is wearing was always one of my favorites to dress my Barbie in. It's kind of sad that they want $45.00 for it. Who would pay that much for a Barbie?

The "Party Store" and Concrete Mixers..YUM!

Today was a pretty nice day. I am exhausted as usual. Kade was begging me to take him to "the party store". His birthday is coming up and we were talking about party themes and I pulled up Party City online and we looked at a few things online and I told him I would take him to the store. So we went and I snapped a few fun pictures. I had to bribe him to let me take his picture. He got a sucker when we left! haha

Diego and Dora!

I had to hold Kamryn's mask on because she kept ripping it off!

Then we met Ryan for dinner at Culver's. YUMMY! The Culver's by Ryan's work is so much better at their Concrete Mixers than the one by our house. It's not just the person making them either. Everytime I have gotten one from the one by Ryan's work every bite has candy in it, which I LOVE! And I don't even ask for extra topping. EVERTIME I order one from the one by my house...and say "extra snickers" I always end up a bunch of ice cream and a few pieces of candy. So from now on I think I will just refuse to get ice cream from the Culvers by my house.

Anyways dinner was yummy and I am tired! I'm off to bed!

Picnic at the park

Today after preschool I took the kids for a picnic at the park. Kamryn has a new love for grass. She was so fascinated by it. She just kept rubbing her hand back and forth over it. As soon as Kade was done with his lunch he was off playing with kids. I started to clean up and a little boy walked up to me and just stared. His Mom came over a few minutes later with her 6 other kids in tow. She told me that her little boy said he wanted to say hit to the pretty baby. So Kamryn had 5 kids oohing and awwing over her. She thought it was the best thing ever. She just laughed and smiled and patted her hands on her legs and was so excited to have so much attention. She even started to babble a little. I don't think she has had that many kids all around her staring at her. The other 2 kids were smaller and in the stroller asleep. One of them probably around the age of 7 just picked her up and wanted to carry her. It was kind of strange. She asked me how many kids I had. I lied...well a white lie. I said two. I honestly didn't feel like opening up to all these kids and their Mom. The whole thing was kind of an uncomfortable situation. I kind of felt ashamed for not mentioning Kooper, like I betrayed him. I am sure he could care less and I am sure he understands. After I said two I wanted to change my mind. I didn't say anything, I just stared at this women in amazement with all 7 of her children...she was going to the grocery store, with all of them...I think the oldest one was probably 10, and the youngest was 6 months, you do the math. I thought...wow that could be me, then I thought again and said to myself, Not in a million years! haha. I get teased by my family about being pregnant 3 years in a row. My dad calls me Louise...that's his Mom's (my grandma's) name. She had 9 kids. I don't' know how close in age they are but I know a few of them are pretty close in age. He also teases me about watching 19 kids and Counting. He tells me I better stop!

I don't know what it is about being pregnant, it causes me anxiety at times, and worry, but feeling your baby kick is one of the best things in the world. I think mostly it reminds me of Kooper. That was the only time I got to really spend with him. So I enjoy the feeling of being pregnant as long as I am not sick. I don't know what it is about those little babies, it would be a lot easier if they didn't grow so fast! About a month ago I saw a little 4 week old when I dropped Ryan off at work and just wanted to hold her in my arms. They grow too fast. I am sure God made it that way so that we would have more than one!

Only I am not getting pregnant anytime soon. Believe me. My body needs a break! I won't officially say this will be our last because I don't want to go back on my words, but lets just say it will definitely be at least a few years away!