Today at Target the cashier notices Kade making Kamryn laugh and then asked how far apart they are. I told her 4 years and her reply was "Oh" using a tone like she was surprised. The way I took it was that she thought I waited too long and had them too far apart. If only she knew. If only she knew that there was a sweet little Angel between them. It wasn't the time or the place. When it is appropriate I tell people as much as possible about my precious little boy. One night at work I felt comfortable talking to my patient. She was older and friendly. She was asking about my kids and I told her about all of them. She too had a stillborn little boy only she had to carry him for weeks after he had passed. The doctors told her that her body would naturally go in to labor.
We pass people on the street everyday, we don't know there situation and it is amazing when people open their shell and tell us about their experience and how much we can actually relate to a strangers trial. I would have never guessed that my patient had experienced something similar, although her experience was much different because they handled it so differently 30 years ago, but the heartache is still the same.
Sometimes I wish people just knew about Kooper, but then maybe no one would want to talk to me. Or they mighte not want to bring up how many children I have, or ask questions that might bring up Kooper because it makes them feel uncomfortable.