Last Soccer Game

Kade had his last soccer game yesterday. He had lots of fun with all his friends.  Then he got his trophy (he was so excited about it.) Here are a few pictures from his last game.

 Getting his trophy.

 Kamryn really wanted out of the stroller! She just wanted to play too!

 Waiting for the ball.

Getting ready to be goalie.

Trunk or Treat

This kids had fun at the church party. They had a trunk or treat. I think we were one of the few who didn't decorate their trunk (whoops my bad.) Here are a few pictures of Kade and Kamryn. We forgot to take Keegan's picture of him in his skeleton PJ's.

Halloween Dress Rehearsal

 I finished Kamryn's costume this morning and so we had a little dress rehearsal for tonight to make sure here hair will actually go in pig tails (all of her hair) and to see if she likes her bucket and stuffed animal. Here she is....more pictures to come from this weekend of the kids in their costumes!

Our Little Boo with her friends Mikey and Mikey's stuffed animal that Boo fell in love with!

Amazed

My kids are growing up too fast. I used to hear older people say things like that and now I am saying it and my kids are still young.  They surprise me everyday with something new. Kamryn does something new or funny, this afternoon Kade was singing a song to Keegan and Keegan just laughed and laughed.  Kade comes home from school and tells me things he has learned and I am just so amazed at how much my kids are growing!  Time is just flying by and I am trying to take in as much as I can.  This week has been busy and next week is even busier, but I like to be busy it keeps me from focusing on the negative or bad things in life and keeps me positive. When I am not busy sometimes I can focus on the things that I wish I would have done or the things I wish I were doing. So I like to be busy and surround myself with others to focus on the good and the positive.  Don't get me wrong I love to relax and sleep after long weeks like this one and next week. Now I am off to finish Kamryn's Halloween costume, try and pick up a little...oh and Keegan just woke up so all that will be put on hold for who knows how long.

Playing together

So today while I was cleaning I had Keegan in the jumperoo and Kamryn was playing in the playroom. I walked in to Kamryn putting the firehat on Keegan. So cute!I was wondering when Kamryn was going to start liking him more.  

I started cleaning some more and heard Keegan crying. So I went back in to check on him and Kamryn had put the Iron man mask on him. He was not too happy about it. She followed me around with that mask while I was holding him...I can picture it now... a few years down the road Keegan is going to be all dressed up in his big sisters clothes with make-up on and his nails painted! WATCH OUT KEEGAN!

Challenge Day 11

Favorite picture ever taken of yourself:

I don't really want to dig through all my old pictures to find some favorites of myself  when I was younger. Luckily we just had family pictures that turned out really great (thanks Teri!) She added a few more picture from our shoot on her blog. Love them!.  I love this one of our family.

Keegan's Baby Blessing

Yesterday as such a special day. Ryan blessed Keegan at our house after church.  We had some close friends there for the special day.  Keegan looked so handsome.  It is really hard to find blessing outfits for boys (I think so anyway). I fell in love with the blessing outfit that we buried Kooper in so after Keegan was born I knew what outfit I wanted for Keegan.  So a month or so ago I went to Mesa to get the blessing outfit and good thing I have a huge little boy because they only had one left and they wouldn't be getting anymore in because the manufacture wasn't making it anymore.  I was so grateful. Keegan was so handsome and Ryan did such a beautiful blessing!

Happy Birthday Mom!

Today is my Mom's birthday! I love her so much! She is the best Mom ever. She has always sacrificed so much for her family and has asked for nothing in return. She is an amazing women.

Thanks Mom for all you have done and still do for us. We love you so much and are so lucky to have you as a Mom. You grand kids adore you and can't wait to see you! I hope you have the best birthday and get to relax!

We love you soooooo much!
Here is a scrapbook page from I did when I was about 10.

The most recent picture of me and my Mom. This is from last April when I was very pregnant with Keegan!

It's an extra special day, today is not only my Mom's birthday but we blessed Keegan today (pictures from that tomorrow). We wish she could have been here along with the rest of the family.

I LOVE YOU MOM!

Crazy Saturday!

We have had a busy, busy day! First off we woke up and had everybody picture ready by 9:00am. We had our family pictures taken by Teri (click on her name to go to her photography blog and see a few pictures from today!)

Then we headed to Walmart to get treats for Kade's soccer game. There were only 6 out of 10 of the players there so Kade had to play most of the game, which is kind of hard for a 5 year old.  They were all hot and tired!

The other team had their names printed on their shirts and this little boy's name is Kade too! Kade was too shy to talk to him but he asked me to take his picture... (this is how your picture turns out when you are trying to snap pictures while holding a 4 month old!

Now we are trying to clean up the house because tomorrow afternoon we have people coming over for Keegan's baby blessing!

Challenge Day 10

A recent dream you have had.

Well lately I have been having not so good dreams so I have been avoiding the challenge and finding something else to blog about. Even though I remember the dreams in detail I am too scared to post them on my blog in fear that they might come true. But last nights dreams could come true any day and I would be one happy girl! I woke up this morning after having a dream that I won 10,000 dollars. I walked into an Arby's and I was the 1 millionth customer. The bell started to ring and the manager walks over and starts getting a bunch of information from me. It was so awesome. I called Ryan and all my family. I thought of all the things that I could do with this money and then woke up. Darn!

It was funny because I told Ryan about this dream and he had a dream last night that we won a 50,000 dollar extreme home makeover! Which would also be awesome. 

I love the good dreams and wish I could just keep the bad ones out of my head!

Parent Teacher Conferences

I had parent teacher conferences. Kade's teacher tells me he is a great kid and she loves having him in class. He has lots of friends and always wants to help. She tells me he is smart and an enjoyable kid to be around. He is a little shy but she doesn't have to make him talk or do things he still raises his hand and gets involved. The only bad thing she had to say is that he is a space cadet. He will space off when he is supposed to be doing an assignment and she has to remind him to get back on task. He has shown so much improvement since the first day of kindergarten and he learns new things every day! I love him so much and I am so proud of him.

It's so weird, there is just something about elementary schools that I love. I love the atmosphere and everything about it...except for maybe the smell.  It brings back all the fun memories of being in elementary school (which were great)!  Maybe I should have become a teacher!? haha

I have had a long stressful day. It was almost one of those days where my cup started to overflow....but I called Ryan and vented before I broke down in tears and cried. Thanks hunny! Glad you picked up your phone!

I cannot beleive it!

Now that's a first for the year. I missed a day. I don't know if anyone else noticed but I didn't blog yesterday! It wasn't on purpose either. Usually if I almost forget when I go to bed I remember and then have to drag myself out of bed and come up with something.  Last night was different. I was asked to work Monday night on Monday morning so I tried to sleep as much as a could although I didn't get much. Then on Tuesday Ryan had to go to work so I only got to sleep for a few hours.  So basically once I had the kids in bed I laid down and was OUT! Ryan came home from work and I said, "Sorry the house is a mess!" It was so messy that I couldn't even describe it.  I guess I laid back down and I was gone!  I woke up this morning and didn't even realize that I didn't do my blog post until about 10:00am.  So there you go.  I have such a wonderful husband that cleaned up the house when he got home from a long day of work. I walked out of my bedroom to a clean house!

So this is not going to happen again. If it counts, yesterday I added a page to my blog, which has Kooper's Story (the short version that was posted on Lanee's Legacy) for anyone that wants to read it. I don't think I ever told the story but only talked about different parts of it in my blog posts.

On another topic I  bought a crock pot today for anyone that wants to send me a good recipe. Keep in mind I am a picky eater so no weird stuff, okay!?

Special 500th Post!

What awesome timing?! Today marks my 500th post! The reason I started this blog was because of Kooper and to share his story and to record family memories and today I won a drawing in honor of him.  Do you remember when I posted about Lanee's Legacy Breakfast? Well if you purchased tickets you were entered into a drawing for a special personalized necklace for your angel baby and then also if you shared your story with them then you got another entry. I entered both way and guess what? I won. I purchased tickets and shared Kooper's story with them (the very long version.) They asked if I could share a shorter version when they announced that I had won. Of course I love to share my sweet Kooper with EVERYONE so I of course said, "YES!"

You can see his story here: http://laneeslegacy.blogspot.com/2010/10/winner-of-our-giveaway-koopers-story.html

Maybe one day I will be brave enough to put the 10 page typed story on my blog. 

I am so excited because I don't win things often and it is just so funny how the timing of it all happened to be on my 500th post on my blog that I started because of Kooper.

I am excited to meet the ladies who started Lanee's Legacy at the breakfast. They have started such a wonderful thiing!

Oh how I love and miss him. I am very honored to be his Mother.

Miss you!

I wanted to post this picture the other night but couldn't find my laptop charger and these pictures were only on my laptop.  Miss my little guy.  We love him soo very much!

Wish I could just hold you in my arms!

First Kiss

Tonight Kade and I went to Target. Just the two of us. It is fun to go somewhere with just the two of us. I don't have to worry about the other kids or him bothering the other kids. It is nice because we actually talk more and better when we are alone. Usually we can't hear each other because Keegan is crying or Kamryn is yelling or being loud.  I wanted to test out a few of the learning toys (Vreader/Leapster Tag) and see which one he liked better and would work for him. On a side note I loved the idea of the vreader but it was so much more expensive and so were the books, but I didn't see a very big selection of books to choose from where as the Tag had 8 books that I know he would like.  So I am leaning towards getting the Tag. Anyhow on the way home we were talking and somehow kissing girls got brought up.  He was giggling in the back and saying that he was going to kiss Taylor because Hunter told him to. I told him that he shouldn't do something that somebody else tells him too, besides he is too young to kiss girls.  So he said but I like to. I told him that he has to wait until he gets married! He agreed!

It brought me back to my "first kiss!" Sounds pretty juicy huh? Not so much. For a couple reasons: 1. It was my first kiss I gave to another boy on the nose. 2. I was only 4 or 5 years old.

I remember it like it was yesterday.  I remember his name where it was and the embarrassment of my mom telling my dad. 

So this boy named Weston (I will spare him the embarrassment and leave out his last name just in case) lived two houses away from mine. If I remember right he was pretty new to the neighborhood. We were playing in the bed of my Dad's old orange and white Ford truck.  I pricked him on the nose with a pin or something sharp and then I kissed it.  I think we might have been playing house or something like that. I don't remember if my mom saw or if I told her but I remember my dad coming home for his lunch break and I was hiding on the other side of the kitchen counter where the bars stools went. I remember listening to my Mom tell him the story and then him saying, "Kami" long and drawn out like I was in trouble.  I was so embarrassed, I am sure I was bright red.  I am also pretty sure that he gave me a nice little talk about not kissing boys, especially at the innocent young age of 4 or 5.

Maybe another day I will tell you all about my first kiss....on the cheek of course!

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remebrance Day

Before Kamryn went to bed we lit a candle for Kooper and all his angel friends.  It is hard to tell that the candle is lit because of  the flash from the camera and the light from overhead on bit it is. Kade blew it out as I walked him to his room

We love and miss you Kooper!

Light a Candle

Now that we are in the new house I don't really miss our old one. I miss that everything was in it's spot and pictures were hung on the wall and Kamryn's room was decorated just the way I liked and wanted it. Right now I don't have the money to put up the bead board again...eventually maybe we will do it again. I can't decide where to put any pictures so I have nothing on my walls and the walls aren't even the colors I want them to be, I actually don't even know what color I want them to be.  I have had some request for pictures but honestly no room is ready for pictures. I really need to work on that. What I miss more than anything right now are the memories. Last night I was reading all the memories I had written about Kooper. Every time I walked into our master bedroom and laid on the bed I could remember laying there waiting for him to start kicking like it was yesterday. Laying on my left side poking and prodding and then changing sides poking and prodding. I remember doing it with Kamryn and Keegan too. More often with them because I was sooo paranoid when they weren't being super active and kicking. I woke them right up!

I think once we finally sale the house I will be sad. I might even cry. I think because I still have a key and because I can go there anytime I want that it hasn't set in that I am saying goodbye to that house that holds so many memories. Especially those memories of being pregnant with Kooper, decorating his room and just spending time in his room after he passed away. It was my thinking place.

Please ligth a candle tomorrow for Kooper and for all those Angel babies!