If you really knew me...

Today I was brave, I went to the mall with the kids, all 3 of them. Going to Target or where ever is fine, even the mall wouldn't be a big deal if I was just going to some store in the mall and leaving. My reason for going, letting them play; made it tough. Kamryn is such a daring little girl that it makes letting her run around on her own (only in the play area of course) tough for me. So here is the deal with the play area: Kade is great to have there but he only likes to chase Kamryn around for a few minutes and then he finds other friends to play with. Kamryn likes to run out of the play area. Me running after her with a baby strapped to me doesn't make it easy. On top of it all I am lugging around a huge diaper bag and any other purchases I have. She runs around like a wild woman, but she is so small and sometimes gets ran over by those big kids that play tag. I am not ragging on the parents that let their kids run around and play tag, because Kade does. I just wish they had a separate play area (for toddlers) like the Chandler mall. Which makes me want to move to the East valley even more!

The funny thing was when I went to leave the mall I didn't have that great of a parking spot. There were parking spots 10 cars further away but someone waited almost 5 minutes for my spot...seriously! I was thinking, "Are you serious? Do you not see that I still have a stroller to put away, a baby strapped to me to put in his car seat, and a one year old to put in her car seat and then control my 5 year old enough to get him to put his seat belt on!?" This may be rude, but I didn't hurry for the guy.

So back to me wanting to live in the east valley (Mesa/Chandler area), or more importantly wanting to live in Utah! haha! No I won't go there today. I have thought about it alot lately as I just got back from Utah and am homesick. Miss my family, miss having someone to hang out with all the time. Miss my favorite restaurants. Miss being close to the LDS bookstores. Here are my reasons why I want to live in the east valley:

1. Get to hang out with my buddy Jenna more than once a month...if that. Plus our kids would get to play together more often.
2. Lots of different malls close by to take the kids to play (instead of 1 mall 20-30 min away)
3. Costa Vida
4. Rumbi's
5. Bow/Ribbon store
6. Did I say there were lots more places close by to take my kids to play?
7. LDS book stores.
8. And lots of other reasons....I just can't think of them right now.

So here is why we don't live in the east valley:

1.Ryan doesn't want to live out there.
2.Far from Ryans work.

I think one of my biggest problems is that Ryan and I haven't made really good friends here in Surprise. We have good friends that live either in Phoenix or Mesa. We have met great people in our neighborhood and have friends from church, but we haven't become super close to any friends/families here in Surprise. I have talked to Ryan about that, about how I feel alone and how I feel like I need a close friend here. He tells me it is mostly because of me. I am quiet and shy. I don't go to a lot of the play dates (especially now that I have two little ones). He tells me I need to put myself out there. I guess I am just not good at the whole making friends thing...or maybe it's just me.

I feel like I am doing a post similar to the MTV show, If you areally knew me.

So now I really want to delete this whole post, cause now I am kind of embarassed in case anybody reads this, but I'm not. I will get over it.