I guess I have comfort in the fact that I went to L&D days later with contractions and he was doing fine on the monitors. It has helped me to not blame myself for his passing. I was responsible for him. So I guess if he were supposed to come out that, that would have been the time.
My faith has helped carry me through the hard times and to know that it is all apart of God's plan for me. Some days I just struggle with it. Not that often but it does still hit me every once in a while. I love and miss my little Kooper!
Here is his tree this year. Because Kamryn loves to take all the decorations off, it's just the Koop tree this year!