Today has been one of those days where you are scared to even leave your house because you have had such a horrible day. You think it will only get worse. But I finally decided that I needed to get out of the house and visit my favorite store that I haven't been to in over 2 weeks...TARGET! It turned my day around. On the way home Kade and Kamryn fell asleep and they are sleeping as I type. I also got to do a digital scrapbook page which was some good therapy for me. Kamryn kept making a little noise every once in a while when I was doing this page, but I think her big brother Kooper knew that I needed a little mommy time and helped her stay asleep. All day all she has wanted was to be held. It doesn't bother me because that was all I wanted a year ago, was to hold a sweet baby in my arms. The only problem with that is that I can't get a whole lot done with the princess in my arms...the sleepy wrap helps though!
I feel much better now. Not because I went to Target, but because when I get to scrapbook about Kooper or talk about him, or just have thoughts without interruption about him, I feel like that is the way I can show him how much I love and miss him. It is my way of spending time with him. It was just what I needed to turn my sad frown upside down!