As October 11th comes and goes I think of how fast the past 3 months have flown by. I think of how Kooper would be outgrowing his cute outfits I had picked out and growing into the bigger ones. Especially the one that his Daddy picked out for him. The weather is changing and as Ryan, Kade and I put on our long sleeve shirts and pants tonight it reminded me of "the outfit" It has a story behind it and is still hanging in the closet. And yes that is the receipt behind it!
Soon after we found out we were having a boy. We went to Dillards and Ryan insisted that Kooper needed this outfit. I didn't want to spend $50.00 on an outfit that is going to get spit up on and ruined, and it really isn't worth $50.00. So one afternoon I talked Ryan into taking it back to Dillards. We get to Dillards and their system is down. You can't return or buy anything at that point. We decide we will walk around the mall and then come back. We went back a few hours later and the system is still down. Ryan has now convinced me that it is meant to be. Kooper needed that outfit for sure.
So the outfit still hangs in the closet. Waiting. I don't know what I will ever do with it. Maybe if we have a boy down the road he will get to wear it. But for now, I guess I will share it with all of you, because that may be the only time Ryan will get to show off "the outfit" he bought especially for his son, Kooper.
I miss him so much that I can't even describe it. Out of all the poems we have read or friends and family have shared with us, this is our favorite! Thanks Jenna for finding it.
If He Could Tell You…..
I’m sure if he could tell you, “Thank You,” he would. I’m sure he would want you to know that he loved being a part of your lives even though brief. He remembers the belly rubs, soothing sounds of your voices, and the adrenalin of wanting him so badly.
I’m sure if he could, he’d tell you..he’s with you forever. He will remember you both in his own angelic way, watching over you, holding onto your souls with his little hands and never releasing. He’s all around you, touching your thoughts and hugging your memories. He smiles and laughs to comfort you each day you feel sad. He’s happy for your strength and needs your hope to help him fly.
I’m sure if he could tell you, “Thank You,” he would, For all the powerful love, for remembering him, for holding him when he was born and missing him when he became your angel. He knows he is your combined, manifested pure love and he is your hope.
He’s the light in your window, he’s the hope in your heart, he’s the baby angel that throws the first snowflake upon your face- his kiss to Mommy and Daddy. Just know that the smiles on your faces help him get through his day, too, and he knows you love him, knows you miss him, and wants you to know that he’s watching over you both. If he could tell you. I know he would.
-Author Unknown
We love and miss you so much Kooper. Mommy and Daddy are proud of you!
2 comments:
That is a beautiful poem.
When I found out I was having another this time I had to go buy an outfit that very day. We hadn't found out what we were having last time and so we hadn't bought anything. Be glad you have the outfit and every time you see it you will be reminded of Kooper.
we were thinking of you guys today. kade and kooper are so lucky to have parents like you guys. you have big hearts with lots of love and you care so much...plus, you are stylish! kooper would've loved this outfit and i'm glad that you guys have to remember that moment when you bought it.
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