blanket

As church was coming to an end on Sunday I glanced to my right and saw a baby carrier/carseat and immediately recognized the blanket that the baby boy was wrapped up in.  My heart ached and my mind trailed off thinking Kooper who for a few short hours was swaddled tightly in that same blanket. (Well it looked the same. I knew mine was tucked away at home in my special box from Lanee’s Legacy.) I couldn’t see the baby’s head, it was covered up by the shade on the carrier all I saw was the bottom of his body wrapped in the blanket and his cute little curled fingers resting in his palms on top of the blanket. It was so cute. I couldn’t help but imagine my Kooper chilling in his little carrier. My eyes filled with tears for my baby boy that was gone too soon. I haven’t been able to take my mind off of it lately. I am pretty sure that this person had an older boy that is close in age to Kooper and that is why she has a blanket that was from Target around that time.

It is so strange because after Kooper passed away I don’t remember seeing babies swaddled in these popular blankets from Target. Maybe it was because I avoided looking at the little baby boys when I was out and about? I am not sure.

I remember Kooper was wrapped and swaddled tightly in this blanket and then another blanket that matched it. I didn’t want him to get cold. I wanted to keep him warm.