Running backwards

Early Wednesday morning as I was finishing up work I had the desire to go running when I got home or at least try to go running. I wasn’t sure how far I would make it. It has been way too long since the last time I ran. As the last few hours went by my eyes were getting heavier and I knew that I wasn’t going to make it on my run. So Wednesday night as I was having chips and salsa at 9pm I told myself I better go running in the morning to offset this horrible habit of late night eating. That habit should probably be broken.

Side note: Being pregnant for 3 years and then nursing for 7 months after that really ruins how much and when to eat. I am not the healthiest eater but being pregnant or nursing always gave me the excuse to basically eat when and how much I wanted. Now that I am not “eating for two” I need to act like it and really watch what I eat before I weigh as much as I did when I was 9 months pregnant!

So anyhow I got up this morning and told myself I was going to go running and that I had to start sometime, why not today? I loved running before. It brought so much clarity and actually gave me time to think about the things I wanted to think about instead of being interrupted by one of the kids.

So I got dressed and off I went.

I hate running.

I struggled so bad. I don’t know if it is getting back into the routine or if I just don’t like It. I think part of it was I wasn’t distracted by my music because my iPod lost all it’s music just so I could sync it to another computer so Kamryn can watch Toy Story 3 on it. I just need to get the motivation to move my music onto the same computer.  I guess we will see. I hope that my love for running that I had after I had Kamryn will return. I love the idea, but the actual process today totally sucked.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated!