Silly dogs...

Our dog CJ has been able to get out from under the gate leading into the backyard. Well about a month ago Ryan used his new tools he got for Christmas and cut a piece of wood so that even when he dug in the dirt he wasn't going to be able to get out. He has now gone to the other side of the house and he sticks his head out the hole for drainage and barks! At first when I heard the barking I thought he had found a way out because it is right by the front door. Much to my surprise I found him like this.

Guessed a girl?

Lori is the winner! She guessed correctly and was the random number I picked! The prize is this 4x6 frame that I decoupaged. It was fun to make. I just bought a unpainted wooden from at Michael's and some coordinating scrapbook paper and decoupaged the paper on. I added embellishments, SUPER EASY!

Belly picture!

I forgot to include the belly picure! This was taken this morning before my appointment. Yesterday the check-out lady at Michaels asked me when I was having my baby. I told her June and she seemed surprised. I guess maybe you just POP more when you get pregnant 3 months after you just had a baby!

Oh boy, Oh boy!

We got to the doctors office today and the first thing the ultrasound tech said was that he would make measurements of everything and then he would look for the gender if we would like to know. Of course we said we wanted to know. And right when he put the doppler or whatever it's called on my tummy it was the money shot. He pulled it off for a second and said, "Well, do you want to know now?" And I said, "sure!" He put it back on my belly and I said, "IT'S A GIRL!" I have seen what boys look like and it sure wasn't a boy! So yes the Perry family is finally getting a girl! We are so excited! My Mom, Kade and sister-in-law Jeni were right from the begining. Ryan was a little sad he wasn't getting another boy, but we are just so happy that our little Kamryn looks perfect! She is measuring right on track and she looks healthy!


Here she is waving HI!

I am working on the prize today. I was going to do it last night, but I couldn't find a brush for the life of me to paint, so I am making it today and will reaveal it along with the winner later today or tomorrow. Depends on how long it takes me.

GIRL POWER! I never thought I would have any girls, so I am excited to be making bows and all the fun girly stuff!

POLL: What will the gender of the next member of the Perry family be??

We are having an ultrasound on Tuesday morning! We are so excited!

I have started a poll. It's located on the right hand side of my blog at the top. Vote for the gender of our baby!! We wanna know what YOU think! The poll will close at 8:00am on Tuesday morning. Also after you vote post a comment below and let me know what your answer is and I will randomly pick a winner (who voted for the correct gender) and send them a prize. I haven't figured out what it will be yet, but it will be cute probably something crafty! So put your vote in now and tune in on Tuesday morning. The appointment is at 7:30 so I will update you all as soon as we get home! Let's hope that this baby isn't too shy!

Too bad I don't have a cool phone with internet so I could update seconds after!

Kooper would have been seven months old today. Time flies by so fast! I look at other seven month old babies and it's hard for me to picture what he would look like. I am sure he would be a chubby little guy just like his big brother was at 7 months.

I wanted to post a picture of Kooper and his Daddy! Not many have seen this picture. This great Angel Mommy Melinda touched up this picture for me. I love it and wanted to share.

I also wanted to share a poem that came with a Christmas Tree ornament that Ryan's aunt Deb gave Kooper for Christmas.

If Tears Could Build a Stairway

If tears could build a stairway
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to Heaven
and bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken.
No time to say "Goodbye"
You were gone before I knew it
and only God knows why.

My heart still aches with sadness
and secret tears still flow
What it meant to love you-
No one can ever know.

But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
Tor remember all the happy times,
life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.

Kids have alot to say if you just take a minute to actually listen!

Sometimes kids say the things you need to hear most and if you don't pay attention then you might miss out on some of the best insights. Some of you may look at what Kade said to me and say that it is just something kids say and others might look at it in a way that I do. Kids are so much closer to the veil then us adults and I think that sometimes they dream or see or somehow just know things because they are so close to the veil.

This story may seem to jump around but all these events I am telling you about lead to this wonderful feeling that is in my heart and soul right now.


Sunday after church I was asked to go to a Young Women fireside that 11 stakes were invited to. Normally I wouldn't have the feeling of, I don't really want to go, but I had just worked the night before and came straight to church after getting some sleep. We also have late church and don't get out until 5 and the fireside started at 6pm. So when the Young Womens president asked. I said sure. I didn't have anything else to do but eat because I was starved! So I ran home and ate and one of the Laural advisers and I carpooled. Speaking at the fireside was the First Counselor in the Young Women General Presidency, Sister Mary Nielsen Cook. And also Elder Michael D. Pickerd of the Seventy was there as a special guest. I was so happy I went because I am the Young Women Personal Progress Leader and for those of you that don't know they have added a new value to the Young Women theme: Virtue. That also means another value to pass off! So she talked about the virtue and being a virtuous women. We then read in 1 Nephi chapter 8 about the Iron Rod and the Tree of Life. It was a very good talk and I became very motivated by it to be better at some of the areas I have been lacking in.


On Monday nights Ryan has been going bowling with some friends at 9:00 and I usually scrapbook. Many times Kade and I lay on the couch and watch Little People Big World and then John and Kate plus 8 comes on. Kade loves that show he calls it, "the kid show." I know I know it is kind of late for a 3 year old to be staying up, but then I get to sleep in! So anyways as Kade and I were watching they showed previews of the upcoming Little People Big World where Matt the father goes to Iraq or Afghanistan (honestly I can't remember which one it is). It shows him with a little boy who is sick on the table and out of it from anaesthesia and doctors in scrubs. Kade begins to tell me, "that's like Kooper." Randomly when he sees sick kids in hospitals whether it be on ER or just on a random TV show he will tell me it's like Kooper. He then tells me that Kooper is in the Tree. Many times after Kooper died Kade and I would get into discussions about Kooper and where he is. Kade usually says from now on that Kade is with Jesus and Heavenly Father. But a while back he kept telling me that Kooper was in the tree. I would always just say ok and not think anything of it. Well last night he reminded me that Kooper was in the tree and then also said to me, "He cried until he touched the tree." and I asked him again what he said and he repeated the same thing. I didn't think anything of it at that point.

Later that night I was laying in bed thinking about my lesson that I would have to give on Sunday and the talk that was given by Sister Cook. I started thinking about all the things she said and remembered the scriptures we read about the Tree of Life. It hit me, Kade was talking about the Tree of Life. I had a hard time not jumping out of bed wanting to read the scriptures again, but it was already 3:00 AM and I really thought I should try and get some sleep.

So this morning as I opened my scriptures the first thing I noticed as I went to 1 Nephi chapter 8 was the words I had written in seminary. Tree = Christ along with another scripture, 1 Nephi 11:19. So I read Chapter 8 and then decided to go to the scripture I had written in. The following scriptures stood out to me:

The end of verse 21 which reads,
Knowest thou the meaning of the tree which they father saw?

22. And I answered him, saying: Yea, it is the love of God, which sheddeth itself abroad in the hearts of the children of men; wherefore, it is the most desirable above all things.

23. And he spake unto me, saying: Yea, and the most joyous to the soul.

24. And after he had said theses words, he said unto me: Look! and I looked, and I beheld the Son of God going forth among the children of men; and I saw many fall down at his feet and worship him.

25. And it came to pass that I beheld that the rod of iron, which my father had seen, was the word of God, which led to the fountain of living waters, or to the tree of life; which waters are a representation of the love of God; and I also beheld that the tree of life was a representation of the love of God.

In the past few months I have wondered about Kooper. The church doesn't really have a stance on stillbirth but Joseph Smith does. I have believed what he has written but still I have wondered why there has been nothing else about stillborn children. So recently it has been in my prayers to know that Kooper is fine and is apart of our eternal family and the things which I believe and have read from Joesph Smith are true. I think that the words Kade spoke to me were the answer to my prayer.

I truly know that Kooper is with our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I know that we are an Eternal Family and will be reunited.




I am so grateful that I went to seminary and wrote the notes in my scriptures and that I went to the fireside on Sunday.

Sometimes when your kids talk remember to really listen. They just might be answering your prayers!

Being a Mom is such a blessing!

As I was reading a few of other Angel Mommies blogs one Mom brought up, "Mommy marks" I was super lucky to not get any Mommy marks with Kade (actually I got a very small one that was about an inch long). But after my belly shrunk back down you couldn't see it. Kooper was so active and long he left lots of Mommy marks! At first as they started to come I thought great my stomach will never look the same. As I was in the hospital awaiting Kooper's arrival knowing he wouldn't come home with me. I realized that these Mommy marks were the best part about me. I tell people that Kooper has literally left his mark on me. I love them. As they started to fade I kind of felt sad. Even though they are so ugly. They are my proof he was here in my belly.

BABY update: An oh so exciting thing happened to me on Sunday night. Saturday night I was really bothered that I hadn't REALLY felt the baby move. I thought I might have but I wasn't 100% positive. I started to worry because Saturday I felt great. Not sick at all. All I could think about was, this is a sign of miscarriage. Not feeling the symptoms and then the baby hasn't moved yet and I was positive that I had started feeling Kooper move by this time. I started having anxiety and thought if I don't feel this baby soon then I am calling the doctor on Monday. My next appt would be an ultrasound and I am not walking into an ultrasound to find that my baby had no heartbeat. (I know that seems so pessimist, but once you go through what I have it makes you think that ANYTHING can happen to you or your baby, everything isn't always pretty and perfect) I do know that it's all in God's hands, so I prayed. I prayed that I would feel the baby and that everything would be fine. Well Sunday came, so did the nauseating feeling I have had for most of this pregnancy. I guess God figures that I need proof I am pregnant and if being sick all the time makes me feel more pregnant than that's the way it has to be. Sunday night after the cardinals game I started feeling the baby kick. Not from the outside though. And then I woke up at 4am Monday morning and I felt the baby kicking. I put my hand on my tummy and I felt the baby kick 4 times!!!! I woke Ryan up and said I can feel it! And I grabbed his hand. By the time he rolled over and put his had on my tummy, no more kicking. So pretty soon he will get to feel our little baby kicking around.

Kade likes to talk about the baby in my tummy and whenever mentioned he wants to see and wants to look at my belly. I am not sure he understands what he is in for. His little brother isn't here with us so I don't know what he is expecting when this little one arrives, but I look forward to seeing them bond. In sunbeams they have been talking about how we came to earth to get a body. It was so cute, the other day he and I were looking at pictures of Kooper. Most of the pictures in my house are closeups of his face. As the one came up with his entire body he said, Kooper has a body! And it was a perfect moment to let Kade know that yes, he does and that's all he needed to go back to live with our Heavenly Father. He came down here to get his body. And then Kade continued to let me know that Kooper lives with Jesus Christ too! Kade makes me smile. It is so amazing how much he learns!