Happy Father's Day!

Happy Father's Day to my sweet hubby and all the other Dad's out there. Especially mine! I have the best Dad anyone could ask for!

Ryan is an awesome Dad. He and Kade like to do their boy things and enjoy spending time together and he is already super protective of his little princess!

Here he is the day his babies were born!

We love you very much and hope you have a wonderful Father's Day!

Lots of love, Kami, Kade, Kooper and Kamryn! oh yeah and CJ too!

You asked for it....

More pictures of our New Arrival! Grandma Keren and Kamryn

She does a lot of this....

Things are going good. We are so happy to have Kamryn in our home. She is a sweetie but lets us know when she doesn't like something. She has been sleeping alot...and I am not complaining! We are lucky to have my Mom here for a week to help out. Kade loves having his Grandma here! She even plays cars with him...which is something I don't do. And who knows of a Grandma that is willing to get down on her hands and knees to play cars? She's the best! We love her!

Worn out big brother...those are his HULK muscles!


Just after Kamryn's first bath at home.

Kamryn Lyla Perry

Little Miss Chubby Cheeks has arrived and the ultrasounds were correct in the fact that she has lots of hair and chubby cheeks and that she is a girl. Also there was no knot in her cord! YAY. They were incorrect in the estimated weight...

Kamryn arrived Wednesday June 17th, 2009 at 9:34am. She is 21 inches long and weighed 8lbs 1 ounce.

Our scheduled induction for Monday night was delayed and then Labor and Delivery failed to slow down so it was looking more like a Wednesday night induction. Well I was having contractions so we ended up going in Tuesday at 6:00. I had progressed since my Monday morning and was regularly contracting so they kept me. Unfortunately they were so busy that I wasn't moved to a delivery room until 12:30 on Wednesday morning but I was just glad to be there!

So they started pitocin, broke my water and then I got my epidural. I had wonderful nurses. My favorite was Amy. She said not only is she a nurse but a personal birthday party planner. After my epidural my blood pressure dropped so they gave me a medication to increase my heart rate. In turn Kamryn's heart rate increased so the pitocin was shut off for a while and I was put on oxygen. Once we both got back to normal we started with the pitocin again and I was on my way.

She was facing the wrong way "sunny side up" just like Kade and fortunately the doctor was able to turn her as she came down the birth canal. It took a little effort by the doctor to help get her out because her heart rate was dropping a little during the contractions and she wasn't coming out very well....probably those cheeks! We finally got her out and when I heard she was 8 pounds I almost died!

She is such a blessing and we are so lucky to have her.

Proud Big Brother!

Kade has been so excited for her to come home. He kept asking if she was coming home with us. He also said today, "Mommy you have two babies!" and I asked him who my babies were. He replied, "Kamryn and Kooper".
Besides the moment of hearing her cry for the first time what hit me the most is when I sat down next to her in the car as we left the hospital. I was actually bringing my baby home. I know my "other" baby is in good hands and is safe from all the evils of the world. But the feeling of getting to bring your baby home is so wonderful!

Kamryn you are a lucky girl to have such great brothers!

Amnio Update!

I am so excited. I had my amnio this morning and her lungs came back mature. It was a little painful, but no worse than the steroid shots or having your blood drawn...for me anyway. So I am on call for tonight. When a bed becomes available they will call me and I will be on my way to the hospital! They did a NST (non-stress test) before and after the amnio and I was having contractions every 3-4 minutes before and then they spread out to being every 5-6 minutes after the amnio but they were stronger. I can't wait to meet my little princess. Kade is so excited and can't wait to hold her. I will keep you all posted!

June 11, 2009

Sometimes it feels like a dream (or nightmare), that I have buried a child. I am not supposed to bury a child. Words and phrases mean different things to me. I see them in a different way than a Mother who has not experienced a loss like mine.

11 Months. Could it almost be a year since that horrible day? It feels like yesterday.

On July 10Th, 2008 these are the things I remember doing:
-Texting back and forth with Jenna about how fun it will be to watch SaraJane and Kooper interact and play together.
-Went to Walmart with Kade and then took pictures of him in his Shrek underwear and sent them to my Mom.
-I called my Mom and she was getting her hair done by my older sister Bree. We discussed what I would do if my water broke. I think we decided that it was either best to go to the nearest hospital instead of driving 30-45 minutes to the hospital I was supposed to deliver at. The other option was to call the neighbor or call 911! Ryan wasn't an option with his work being 45min to an hour away then having to drive all the way back in to the hospital...didn't make any sense.
-As the day went on a big monsoon storm hit. Ryan stayed at work a little late hoping that the rain would be like a normal Arizona rain...pour for 10 minutes and then the sun comes back out from the clouds, but no it didn't clear up. He came home still drenched from running from the building to his car.
-Then at about 11:00pm I was laying on the couch and thought WOW, Kooper why aren't you doing the normal acrobatics that I am used to? I poked and prodded my belly waiting for a kick back. I showered, ate an otter pop, drank cold water, and layed on each side poking him waiting for his response. When no response came I called L&D to see if they had anymore tricks...they said to come in. Being an optimistic person, thinking that nothing bad could really happen to me. Thinking I am going to go in hear his little heart beating and then he will start his acrobatics because that is how L&D trips go you have symptoms until you get there.

Ryan stayed at home with Kade since it was practically midnight and he was sound asleep. I was certain I would be home within an hour unless they checked me and I was dilated which I was hoping for! Unfortunately that wasn't the case for me.

So needless to say I was hoping today Thursday June 11th, 2009 would be a different day. I was having some anxiety about today. I didn't want any similarities to Thursday July 10th, 2008. The one similarity was that it was the Thursday before my scheduled induction. I thought about going to Walmart that day and didn't. I hoped it wouldn't rain, it didn't. I don't know if my husband was reading my mind, but he left work right on time and was home on time. I am glad that June 11th is over. I feel a weight lifted off of my chest.

I love and miss my baby so much! I think about him everyday. On Sunday I taught Ryan's Sunday School lesson because the boys in his class were at camp. I figured I wouldn't make him teach a room full of girls. The lesson was on Joseph F. Smith and the Redemption of the Dead. It reminded me of our purpose here on the earth. And that all my little boy needed was a body and that he was needed in heaven for other reasons. I try and think that my Kooper is gone on a mission. A long one to me but such a short one when we think of eternity. He is perfect! I look forward to the day that we will be reuinted as a family.

Families are Forever

Not much longer....

I just had to share an ultrasound picture that we got on Tuesday. We are almost done with all these ultrasounds....tomorrow is my last "official" one until Monday. The tech kept commenting on how much hair she has (you can kind of see it in the ultrasound picture above! I am scheduled Monday morning for an amniocentesis to make sure Kamryn's lungs are developed. I am pretty sure they are, considering I have had steroid shots and every BPP she passes her breathing with flying colors. At this last ultrasound as soon as the tech put the doppler showing her chest she was doing her practice breathing like a champ. I am praying and praying that I can go into labor on Friday (or sometime this weekend), before they do the amniocentesis. Since I will be 36 weeks they won't stop me from going into labor. I would rather not have a needle stuck into me, but the doctor can't induce me without knowing that she is ready to come out! So please pray that she will come before they do that test if she is ready. My doctor tells me I CAN wait to be induced and then they wouldn't have to do the amnio, but I just want to get her out before I go NUTS! Even though at every ultrasound they check the cord and the blood flow of the cord I still have anxiety and I want her out as soon as she is ready!