Disney On Ice

In January Kamryn and I got tickets to Disney On Ice, Dare to Dream and had a girls day with our friends Jenna and SaraJane. We first met up for lunch at the Rainforest Cafe and then headed on over to the show!

We made a quick stop at the Disney store and then we were off!

 

     

I was laughing so hard during this picture of Jenna and I because SJ was taking the picture of us and all these people were staring! It was great! The girls had fun and so did Jenna and I. I think we may have enjoyed it more! Maybe next time just Jenna and I will go???

January Recap…since I’m so behind!

When we got home from our Trip to Utah we went out to the cemetery to pick up Kooper’s Christmas tree and stopped for some lunch!

    

Keegan was there…Just didn’t get any pics of the crazy kid!

Nappy time! This doesn’t happen often at our house lately! Unless its by accident or I get in a really bad mood and force them to nap. It ends up biting me in the rear because if they nap they take longer to fall asleep at night.

Ryan got free tickets to the Fiesta Bowl! We wore our Utah State sweatshirts because we weren’t huge fans of either team. We did cheer for the ducks though, and then won! 

Keegans favorite thing to do…run his fingers through my hair!

  

Our old babysitter Laura and her husband Kyle came to visit before they moved to Michigan. They just had a baby boy a few months earlier named Brody. All Kade wanted to do was hold him. He really wants another baby to join our family…

 

Kamryn loves to dress up like Belle!

Fun at the park!

Greif

Yesterday while I was driving around for work I was close to Ryan’s work so I called him up and asked him if he wanted to meet for lunch. I was glad he was able to meet me. We don’t have much alone time without the kids so it was nice to just meet up and have a little lunch date.

Recently a friend of Ryan’s he met through work passed away unexpectedly. As we talked at lunch Ryan brought up how it reminded him of when Kooper passed away. When you wake up in the morning and everything is great and then you remember that sad news. This brought me back to thinking of that feeling too.

Many mornings after Kooper passed I would reach for my belly as I woke up to find it was gone and then having to deal with the reality that He was gone. That everything was ready, his bassinet, his crib and bedroom and a big brother to love on him. Morning after morning this grief would pass over me as I remembered the reality of what happened.  I don’t remember how long I did that for but remember it being so painful. Eventually I wouldn’t feel for my baby. But would wake to thinking of Kooper and how I missed him so much and all the What ifs. Greif moves through us and changes us. I don’t usually wake up and think of the baby I miss so much. But daily there is always something that reminds me of him in my life and the way he has changed me and my family. He will always be my baby.