Record

I wish I could push record sometimes and remember the exact conversation I just had with someone. Especially my kids and especially my husband so I can prove him wrong and be RIGHT (can you tell I love to be right?)!

On Saturday we were on our way to the outlets that are about 45 minutes from our house and Kade asks me from the back seat. "Is Kooper going to come live with us again?" I can't exactly remember how our conversation went. This was one of those times I wish I could rewind and look back on his questions and my answers in hope that I answered them the way I would have wanted to. He asked me if Kooper would be all better and if his lips would be yellow (not sure where he got this from. One of his pictures his lips look more yellow)?  I told him that one day when Jesus comes again that everybody that died is going to get their body back and their body will be all better. Kade asked me if Kooper would come home with us and I told him that Kooper would be with us again but only if we are good and choose the right. He also asked if he would be able to hold his little brother and I teared up and told him yes, you will get to hold your brother. That made him so happy. It made me so happy thinking about the day that I will get to hold him in my arms again.

I miss him so much! I still ache to hold him and ache for all the things that I am missing out on, all I can do is look at the eternal perspective and know that if I do what is right and keep the commandments that I will get to hold and raise him one day. Until then I will just have to hold my other kids and raise them to the best of my ability.

Mother’s Day!

Happy Mother’s Day to all you Mom’s out there! I had a great Mother’s Day! I got lots of love notes from my husband and kids. The primary sang in sacrament meeting at church but Kade wouldn’t go up and sing because he was too shy so once we got home I made him sing to me! We had a picnic at the park after church and then we went to visit Kooper at the cemetery to clean his marker and put a new little pinwheel up. I need to get him some new flowers next time! I love being a Mom it’s the greatest and hardest job in the world! I am so thankful for my own Mom and all that has sacrificed for me, I didn’t realize how much sacrifice she made until I became a Mom myself. 

Keegan’s 11 months!

Already? Not my baby? In a month he will be one? So last month I totally missed his 10 month update. It was my birthday and I used that excuse and then never got around to doing a post. He is growing up too fast! I don’t know if it’s because he has a sister he has just got to keep up with or if he is just a faster learner than the others. He has been walking up to 12 steps at a time, usually it’s only 4 but when he really wants something (like his Mama) he is willing to go the distance to reach it! He is so happy,  one of the happiest baby’s I have ever met, until you take his toy away and he screams like a little girl. (I wonder where he learned that from?) He has two teeth on the bottom but I can see one of the top ones starting to poke through and I can feel the other top one. He loves dog food, actually he likes any food. I haven’t found something that he doesn’t like yet, let’s hope it stays that way. He has been sleeping through the night for a while now. Every once in a while we have a bad night but not too often. He takes two naps a day. He still loves my hair and loves to rub it between his fingers and try and eat it. When it’s in a pony tail he likes to grab right underneath the pony tail and rip the hair out. He likes to smack you in the face and he thinks it’s funny. I am trying to teach him that' it’s not nice but it doesn’t seem to be working. He claps whenever you say, “YAY!”  He loves to bounce (dance) to music. He is a pretty good listener when you say, “No”. He loves the bath more than anything. He hears water and in no time he will be to wherever it’s coming from. He loves to give kisses and cuddle. His eyes are still blue…I am hoping they stay that way. 

Happy Feet

The other day Kade wanted to watch Happy Feet. This used to be his favorite movie. As we were watching it I realized that Keegan looks a lot like Happy Feet with those eyes and he always smiles with his mouth open and his tongue showing. Before we cut his hair if it wasn’t wet it was fuzzy and stick straight out. So that is his new nickname! Good thing it fits him pretty well, he is such a happy kid, smiling at everyone and he likes to dance!

Fear

This is exactly why I can't sleep at night knowing that the kiddie play pool has water in it...

Maybe my over cautiosness and fear of drowning is the cause of Kade's fear of water and learning to swim but is he better off as a young kid to have a fear of water or have no fear? I don't remember much but I do remember that when I was 2 or 3 my cousin Janet who was 8 drown. I was afraid to death of the water. Swimming lessons? Forget it. My mom tried a few times. Eventually when I could "touch" the bottom of a pool while standing I would go and not be freaked out but it just took some time. I know that my fear was developed from my experience and my fear still lives on. I fear that one of my kids will drown. So empty your kiddie pools this summer because you never know, even one of the young neighbor kids might see it and want to get in...

Kade started swimming lessons yesterday and Ryan said he did well. I hope he learns more than he did last year and learns to love swimming so that we can enjoy it. As for Kamryn and Keegan they love the water, and we plan on starting swimming classes with them now so they aren't so scared and we can teach them to swim early in life to help ease my worries, althogh I don't think the worry will ever stop! I don't think I will EVER be able to have a pool in our back yeard.  I don't think I would get any sleep at night, always worried that the gate didn't shut or whatever the case might be.

Happy

Some days with Kade at the store are just horrible but today he was such a great helper and wanted to do everything. I love it when he likes to help! 

Just before I picked him up from school today I remembered something that was very sweet and special to me from Easter Sunday. When we got in the car ready to leave church and head home Kade was so excited to tell me something. He said, “Guess what Mom, guess what!? I told my teacher about my little brother Kooper!” He was so proud and happy. I am sure they were talking about the resurrection and how one day our loves ones will be resurrected too.

Thanks Kade for making my day way better than I expected it to be!    It also makes me happy when he is nice to his sister!

Oh and I can’t forget about these tulips(I think that’s what they are) that Ryan brought home Saturday night! They make me happy too!

Happy Birthday Ryan!

Yesterday was Ryan’s birthday and I am so horrible that I blogged about other things and not his birthday. But I wanted to keep things in order and my intention was to get to that post yesterday but I got sidetracked and it just never happened.  Also what I didn’t post about earlier was the awesome weekend that Ryan and I got to spend together thanks to our friends, the Burningham’s. They offered to watch the kids overnights so we could have a night away. We played like we were kids again. Saturday we went to a water park and had such a great time. I want to go back already!  Since we have been married we haven’t ever gone to one without kids so it was nice to go on slides and not have to sit in the kiddie area the entire time or worry about kids. It was just us!  Unfortunately we didn’t take any pictures so that is why there is not a blog post about our weekend….

Happy Birthday Ryan. I am glad I had the day off so we could spend it together and enjoy life! I love you so much and I am so lucky that you are mine!