Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
So I have been soooo horrible at blogging. I will try and get better… Here are some random pictures from our month so far….Sorry Kade, don’t feel neglected, but when I try and take your pictures you tell me your allergic to cameras….so it’s your own fault I don’t have very many pictures of you! I still love you though!
My handsome kade. He has been such a helper and is doing great in school. I can’t even remember the last time he hasn’t come home with a green light, which used to be a struggle. I am so proud of him. He is the sweetest boy!After running errands all day Keegan and Kamryn were pooped. Thought they looked cute…Keegan was licking the bath water…A few weeks ago They were in the bath and Kamryn was right behind Keegan with her face in the water and I look over and Keegan is peeing and then kamryn sits up and said, YUM! She didn’t know he was peeing in the water…Maybe it’s time for seperate baths??? One day while the kids were playing in Keegan’s room it got real quiet…I had to go see what was going on…. Keegan is a little gymnast…he loves to swing on the lower clothes rack…he has a strong core!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Keegan, Daion, Kade and Kamryn all cuddled up watching cartoons.
Our last day there we took the kids to the Fun Park to ply and Roller Blade.
Kamryn overcame her fear of big playground enclosed slides while we were there.
Then we stopped at Big J’s in Richmond to get some Tots and of course FRY SAUCE! Yumm! Kamryn loves ice cream so when she found out Aunt Ashley had some she knew who her new best friend would be! Right behind Kamryn is our rental car. It was a 2011 Dodge Durango and in case you are wondering….it was nice, wish I could afford one of those!
Wish we were back in Utah with family. We love and miss you all!
We had a great time in Utah. The only thing missing was SNOW! It didn’t snow but a skiff on one of the first days we got there. And then it rained and melted the crusted snow that wasn’t even soft enough to play in. Oh well we had so much fun visiting with our family that the snow didn’t really matter after all! Keegan cuddling with Grandma Keren and CJ in his little Christmas sweater! They sure love Grandpa, he gives them all kinds of treats and does power slams onto the bed. We even saw some deer while we were there!
Christmas Eve my Mom made some Yummy soup that Ryan thinks I need to learn how to make. I told my mom that she should just make a couple batches when she visits and then I can freeze it so I don’t have to learn to make it….can you tell i love to cook? Above Kamryn and Daddy playing games on the iphone and itouch.Santa had to move all the presents into the living room so there would be room for his presents for all the kids. Notice the tree missing some lights. I am pretty sure that the lights partiallen went out when Keegan knocked over the tree! Christmas morning my Dad woke us up at 7am. When I was growing up It was the opposite. We were waking him up at 4am!
Some of the kids presents minus all their clothes. They sure enjoyed them all!
The look on his face is so cute, I wish I would have got a better shot. I forgot to get a picture of it, but he got the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse with all the characters. He was pretty impressed since it is his favorite show to watch.
After opening presents and having breakfast we went to church. Ryan ended up catching some sort of 24 hour Flu bug so after Church he disappeared for the rest of the night. Meanwhile the kids had fun playing with their new toys.
When we werent sure where Keegan had snuck of too he was either climbing down the stairs to go play in the basement with the toys or in Daion’s room playing cars. He woudl just line them up.
On Christmas Day I found him in the bathroom….. He loved playing with Maleaha, it was like having a little sister to pick on! Of course little sisters always get you back! Here is Kamryn’s dollhouse all put together with the room sets she got for Christmas. I think I had more fun with it then she did! She still loves to play with it and so does her brothers. And of course there is hardly ever any furniture in the house. It’s usually on her floor.
This picture is blurry, but I had to share it. Keegan was trying to actually get both his feet inside the mini van that goes to the dollhouse. He did get them both in at one point and then fell down crying.
I am back to blogging. That was a long break (for me anyway). I wanted to blog but since I got my iphone I have barely been on my computer.I was also hoping to get pictures from Christmas from Ryan’s phone onto the computer and it still hasn’t happened so I am just going to do it with what I have got.
It’s been crazy lately, just before Christmas I was in a car accident and luckily none of us had to go to the hospital but our car was totaled and we were supposed to be leaving for Utah in less than a week. At the time we hadn’t confirmed that our car was totaled so we had to rent a car in the meantime and luckily it all worked out so we could take the rental to Utah. So between finding a new car, getting settled back into a routine, going to doctors appointments and everything else it’s been crazy stressful! I am the type of person that keeps filling all these little worries and bothers in a cup and then the littlest thing fills up the rest of my cup and it just spills right over. I really need to work on that. Luckily recently as I sensed the fullness I decided to pray, because I knew that no one else could really do anything besides listen to me complain and really who wants to listen, (by the way sorry Mom and Ryan for always having to listen to it!) Sometimes I like using my blog as an outlet because once it’s written down it is almost a relief and I can move on. Some things that have been adding to my cup that I have wanted to get out
I miss Kooper. Lately I have had moments where I am upset that I didn’t get to fight and plead for his life. Some people get a chance to plead to heavenly father to spare the life of their child.
I am sad that Kooper would have been a SUNBEAM in church. He would be a big boy that goes to Primary! It makes me sad.
I never thought I was attached to my car and the funny thing is we ended up buying the exact same year, and color of car so unless you are familiar with some of the little differences in my car you would never know I got a new one. But my old car had so many memories in it. I was pregnant with Kooper when we got it. I carried his car seat around in it. I drove to many doctors appointments in it. I drove myself to the hospital in it and then followed the hearse that carried him to the cemetery in it. It’s a weird feeling but I feel like I lost more of Kooper in losing my car. I felt the same way about our house when we moved. I am sure I will soon get over it.
I see all the people who are dealing with cancer and it saddens me. It scares me because after Kooper it really opened my eyes and I no longer have that voice in my head saying. “It won’t happen to me.” because it can and it does. I just have to remind myself that it is all in God’s plan and I just have to have faith. So I just have to have faith that there is a reason I didn’t get to fight for Kooper to stay and that he didn’t have to suffer.
Sometimes when I am getting annoyed with my kids or frustrated when they wake up every hour at night screaming that life it too short and if given the option to have my son here with us meant I would be up every hour on the hour for the rest of my life than I would take it. He would be worth it. So my kids that are actually here with me need to be worth it.
When I hear them giggling in Keegan’s room and go to check it out and find this…
What did I do? Laughed! Even thought they could easily break the crib with all the weight of them jumping. I laugh because I am just so thankful to have them here with me and they are HEALTHY. I thank God every day for healthy kids. They may not be perfect but I love them no matter what, they are mine! They are my pride and joy and I would do ANYTHING for them.
I was relieved that Heavenly Father was answering my prayers. He answered them in someone's testimony in church on Sunday, in a blog post about how sometimes we get sad and that it’s normal. We are not “super moms”. And then this morning when I talked to a friend who at the young age of 18 with a full ride volleyball scholarship right in front of her got in a terrible accident leaving her a 3% chance of living. She wasn’t supposed to be able to walk, but did. Hearing her outlook on life and realizing that even though life seems to be getting tough and isn’t exactly how I want it to be, that I am pretty lucky to not only be alive and healthy, but have a wonderful husband and loving children to be with everyday. I am so thankful for my parents and all that they sacrificed and did for me growing up and that they still do for me today.
So here is to a new year! I am not sure what this year has in store for me but I am looking forward to spending time with my family and being happy!
Since we didn’t have a lot of room to pack gifts in the car we let the kids open a present from each other the night before we left for Utah. Ryan and I even opened toys that were in boxes to condense down the amount of room that gifts would take up.
The next day we headed for Utah and had a pretty uneventful drive up there. It did snow a little which freaked me out a little because I haven’t driven in snow in YEARS! I was so worried I was going to hit black ice or something. Luckily we made it safe and sound!